No worries Psy. Why don't you go live with small (I mean really small) lots. Some brokers let you trade a single unit of currency - that would be 0.00001 lots. Heard about Oanda? Maybe there are others too. Why don't you try trading 1, 5, 10 units with real money?
You can experiment with your pain threshold. If it's too painful, cut back the size. If you can take losses lightly, you can raise the ante. No hurry. Haste makes waste.
And yes, it might be a good idea to stop following twatter, cnbc, bloomberg etc. if it's only a distraction for you.
Surround yourself with people whose eyes light up when they see you and who have no agenda for your reform.